Sweating the small stuff... I hate sweating!

If you've known me awhile, you probably know that I detest sweat... (as a big man it's inevitable in the warmer months - between February and November), but more than that I find myself getting hung up and frustrated by small things in my life.  Whether it's Phineas' constant whining, Declan's not paying attention to the obstacles around him, or when I can't find the shirt that I want to wear.  I've been accused (and rightly so) by many people of being emotionless... and for some degree that is true.  I spent so much time in my childhood crying in my bedroom (fat, effeminate, uncoordinated, and loudly opinionated kids got picked on sometimes) that I try really hard not to let things get me down.  So, when I was a Senior in High School I made a pact with myself.  I would only get emotional at special occasions (weddings, funerals, births, and of course Disney/Pixar movies). 

I wanted to focus only on the positive emotions - joy, laughter, love, etc... but lately I'm finding myself doing a lot of yelling and a letting my emotions take me to darker places than I want.  This year has been a little stressful so far... we spent more money at Christmas than we should have, then my bathroom tiling project was $$$ I was not expecting to spend, then I just got 4 new tires on the car... so, mixed with having less money in Savings than I do in Checking, things have been stressful with the kids and Sarah.  Our house has not rebounded from the holidays (new stuff, but no space) and that chaos is almost numbing... but at the same time it's so overwhelming that we don't know where to start.  We've tackled some of the easier tasks, but we really need a solid day or two to devote to the house (preferably without the kids, who pick up whatever you put down or get out whatever you put away!).  Now, the question is, "When?"  Where do we get the time to do this?  It won't be fun... but it will help us all be a little less stressed and on edge.

Also, in case you were wondering about the bathroom... it's almost done... I finished sealing the grout and caulking, but I broke the shower curtain rod this morning.  So, no final pictures just yet!

In the meantime, I'm counting to 10, breathing slowly, and thinking happy thoughts...  and despite wearing a sweater, there's no sweat today!